Saturday, February 22, 2014
Tonight I am missing Stuart. My pet tortoise passed away on February 20. She had been in my family for 16 years. I can still remember picking her out at Smitty's pet store and being so excited to bring her home. My dad and I were getting baptized that weekend and he let me count out his change jar. $100 in quarters later she was mine. She was perfect. A tiny little sulcata that could fit in the palm of my hand. I dreamed of her being large enough to ride and knew one day my children would be able to. Stuart would rome my room, the backyard, and even the house sometimes. She had such a personality for a tortoise, almost like a more self maintained and less cuddly dog. She had quite a few adventures in her time. She first moved into the back yard under our lemon trees in Lake Elsinore when she was 5 years old. Then after quite the growth spurt and moving to Logandale we let her take over the entire backyard. After our first year or two in Logandale she ran away. I think she was gone for about 3 months when finally one day our neighbor came strolling down the street with Stuart in a stroller. She had made her way out the back gate and across the alfalfa fields to the Staheli home. She managed to find a play house where she was used as a stool by the neighbor kids who thought she was a giant moving rock. I was so happy to have her return. I couldn't imagine her being gone forever back then. And i still can't now.
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Kaden and I celebrated our fifth anniversary on Valentines day. In some ways i can not believe it has already been so long and in others i can't believe it has only been 5 years. In 5 years we have lived in two states, moved 4 times, bought a home, bought a car, attended school, finished school, had several different jobs, visited San Francisco 4 times, Disneyland 7 times, Mexico, Seattle and Nashville once, had three pregnancies and two beautiful daughters. We are so much more in love today than we were the day we said yes to spending eternity together. It is almost silly to think i knew what love was when i was only 19. We were obviously smitten by one another and couldn't stand the thought of not being together forever, but we have truly grown so much over the past few years. We are best friends, we are lovers and we are parents. Kaden works so hard to provide for our little family and make sure we are happy. I hope my loving husband knows how absolutely sure i am that i made the best decision 5 years ago when i committed to an eternity with him by my side.
Emersyn Hope Leavitt
was given a name and a blessing on February 9.
Kaden blessed our sweet girl in our ward surrounded by family and few close friends.
The things that were said were so perfect for our dear Emersyn. She smiled through out her entire blessing and had every man surrounding her smiling back. Our little girl is still so fresh from heaven i can't help but feel a little closer to the Lord every time i hold her. Her blessing said a lot about her testimony and her helping her families testimonies to grow.
Happy very late 3 months to Miss Emersyn!
Seriously she is almost 4 months old now, but these pictures were taken the day she turned 3 months
This dark haired blue eyed girl has two hobbies... blowing bubbles and eating.
Her days consist of sleeping, smiling and being picked on by Leighton.
She is currently working on sitting up and pushing herself up.
Em still loves being swaddled and rocked to sleep.
She is the biggest mommas girl and I am just fine with that.
Emersyn loves cuddles, kisses, and of course Tiffany.
Those two have really good staring contests.
She is so strong and has the sweetest spirit.
My only wish right now is that she could stay this little forever.
Her thigh rolls melt my hear and morning smiles make early days so worth while.
Sunday, February 9, 2014
I am sure i have at least 5 other posts with the same title, but we went to Disneyland. Kaden started planning this trip months ago, after we decided to move and after he heard about Superbowl weekend being empty. Our move has now been postponed a few months but we still knew we were in desperate need of a fun little family trip and to do something to celebrate our 5th anniversary.
A few of Leighton's favorites
Melt my heart! Leighton held my hand while we rode the carousel.
This girl just chilled the entire time.
It really was a magical weekend. Leighton was in heaven with all of the music, characters, rides and parades. The first morning we walked into the park for breakfast and Leighton literally danced her way down main street. There is something special about little girls in princess outfits at the happiest place on earth. My family and Uncle Jimi's family were able to come to Disneyland with us and help make the trip that much more fun. We can't wait until both girls are able to enjoy the park together.
Sunday, January 26, 2014
If you've followed my Instagram lately then you should know by now how crazy Leighton is. Ever since our visit to Nashville we have been watching our sweet 1 year old transform into a crazy almost 2 year old that might act more like a teenager than a toddler, minus the boy problems. Heaven help us when this girl discovers the opposite sex.
Two things we have managed to work on inbetween her shaking her finger and saying no and telling me to go away have been potty training and doing her hair everyday. She has been awesome with potty training! Only about 1 accident a day and the only time I put a diaper on her is for bed at night. She loves her big girl panties. So much that she put all 6 pairs on when we first got them and ran around yelling woo hoo.
Her hair has been more of a struggle but if I can distract her with a muffin or a little doot doot (TV) then it turns out pretty cute and she likes to look at it and say pretty. Speaking of pretties Leighton is obsessed with puffy little dresses and skirts. She actually tries to wear a skirt with every outfit and likes to twirl around and watch it flow. We bought her a Minnie Mouse dress the other day and she wanted to sleep with it and then brought it into me at 6:30 in the morning so she could put it on. I actually had to hide it so she'd wear different clothes this weekend.
As much as I like to point out how crazy and hard she is I wouldn't want her any other way. She is still very sweet and loving and very much her own person. I love seeing her personality grow. I love that she still can't pass up on cuddles or being held. I love that she is still little no matter how big she may seem. And I love that she has really started to take on the role of being a big sister. She has started to hold Emersyn, try to carry her (we don't encourage this), and play with her. The more she talks and accomplishes big girl things the more I know she really will be a great example for Emersyn and she will love having a little sister to boss around.
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
A couple of Sundays ago sacrament seemed to be extra hard to sit through. Em was upset and fussy and had a horrible cough and Leighton had smacked her head on the corner of the hymn book holder and screamed like crazy. When the last song began I instantly felt peace come over me and Leighton bless her heart tried her hardest to sing along. The hymn being sung was because I have been given much. With Leighton's sweet spirit next to me so reverently singing along with the congregation I couldn't help but melt. I probably paid attention to the words more than ever before. It is a beautifuly simple song that reminded me of what I am supposed to be doing with my life.
Lately I have felt overwhelmed by my role as a mother. It is truly the most rewarding job I have ever had but the most challenging as well. I worry about 99% of the time that I'm not doing enough. That the 5th load of laundry and placing Leighton in front of the tv aren't exactly what I should I be doing with my day. I worry that I don't give my girls enough hugs or kisses and that even though my time is no longer devoted to shool or a real job that I'm not devoting it to the things that I should be. And it's true I am not devoting enough time to The Lord. I haven't been to the temple since Leighton was born. I haven't done my visiting teaching since our ward split last summer and I haven't held a calling for probably close to a year now.
Because of my sweet daughters eagerness to sing these sweet words I realized my feelings of being so much less than what I should be can be eased if I only begin to live how I really should. I know I am blessed. I have been blessed with two beautiful daughters. With a loving husband. Supporting family and amazing friends. Because I have been given much, I too must give. If there is any one goal I am going to work especially hard on this year, it will be this one.